Emily Warna, always enjoyed your writing and you are spot on here.
Everything I have ever written with the intention of gaining wider approval has been met with a derisory response. Trying to be the zeitgeist and create content which resonates with a wide audience is incredibly hard! When I focus on writing well, fixate on the things that fascinate me, I am able to touch on something deeper which proliferates the consciousness of a wider audience more successfully. Isn’t ironic that the content I craft for more people is consumer and enjoyed less than the stuff I write for one person — me.
Ultimately, I think you have to write for yourself. Personally, my writing acts as a snapshot of my thoughts at any particular moment in time. It often chronicles the way I change my mind while hopefully showcasing my growth as a person. Maybe.
If you focus on claps, either trying to get more or worrying that you didn’t get enough, you miss the point. Writing isn’t more or less valuable because people have consumed it. If it matters to you it shouldn’t matter if nobody else cares, we should be brave enough to embrace the opportunity to create irrespective of whether anyone ever see’s it.